I have become so overwhelmed with life lately. Its crazy how work and a child can over take your life. Do I regret it? Not in a million years.
Now, that I am a mother of such a cute 9 month old girl. I need to start thinking about my way of life. I'm not taking about being a swinger or doing hard core drugs either. I'm simply talking about being healthy and active. Its no secret that I have had a weight problem for many years now. I think its heredity as well as a huge love for food. My real mom (I was adopted) was very much overweight. She had diabetes and very lazy. She would sit in her chair and watch the cooking channel and doze on and off. Never really came outside o play with me or even check up on me for that mater. I ran around the neighborhood with my friends without a care in the world.
I have learned a couple things from my childhood.
1. Not to be so lazy and let my child run rampid with the neighborhood children without knowing where she is.
2. Be more active.
Since she had weight onset diabetes, that means I am more at risk. It also didn't help that I had gestational diabetes while pregnant too. So now I am defiantly more likely to get it.
With the overwhelming feeling that has taken over my emotions lately I went to the doctor to see what I can do to rid this feeling. Depression medicine was the decision. I will start these tomorrow. Hopefully this will contribute to some change. Besides getting Zoloft, I also was weighed at the doctors. Okay this one is hard but I need a change and saying it outloud will help. I was 217! Ahhhhh okay I'm fine. That is obease. Its had to read let alone say and post online. I am needing to change my life. Not just for my health but for my daughter. She looks up to me and what I do and eat she will want to do the same. My goal weight untimely is 150-160. I know I have a long way to go but I need, no I have to do this.
Positive changes are going to start happening. Starting now!!!!! I am watching what I eat and using an app on my phone called fitnesspal. My family uses it so they can help encourage me to do good. I will also be making a commitment to take Mackenzie on a stroll every night to get some fresh air and exercise. I hope I can stick to this.
Wish me luck.
